November 2011
2 posts
memento mori
A kiss. I saw the look in your eye and I curse myself. This was going to hurt. Bulletproof, you can’t catch me. For a second I pull away, you draw me back, inescapable, you draw me in, lift me up. Escapism. I have no choice but to continue. I’m right, it hurts. Doubts disappear. I find myself pining, words spilling, mind brewing thoughts I thought I could not think. I imagine hearing...
July 2011
1 post
the world overwhelms me
June 2011
1 post
falling in and out of love like there’s nothing to lose, scared of losing everything because i’m leaving, leaving because i need to get out, move on, brush off. you brushed me off and laughed me out and i landed feet first and walked away, you won’t catch me oh no. there’s faces here i don’t recognise and it’s getting too late to remember why i cared, it’s...
April 2011
2 posts
once you’ve gotten over being a melodramatic teenager, it really is rather simple to get on with life
entitled this catharsis and not feeling cathartic at all
August 2010
2 posts
900
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF
Books are what I love most in the world
A close second love is rosé wine
Fell in love with Italy in the one week I spent there
Many acquaintances, far less friendships
I get my blunt sarcasm from my father
Apparently friends with music fags and rather less than intellectuals and drug addicts yet these are the three things which I’m not
Teaching myself...
July 2010
1 post
tumblr is stupid, goodbye for now.
June 2010
25 posts
slightly concerned about falling for the best friend, oh no. i’m feeling sad, my college life is completely over on wednesday and people are already leaving. becky’s gone and finn’s going next week. my brothers flight is in a few hours, i don’t know where the time’s gone. ahhhhh fuck.
mama chicken is moving back to london on tuesday. this is no good, who will give me that much needed incredible advice now?! this has come around a lot quicker than expected, i swear i had plans to grab a drink with her and strath and bean and to talk about hobbits and to compete in pub quiz’s..? oh dear, oh dear! i feel like an awful friend because i even managed to miss her birthday party...
somehow only just realised that my big bro’s leaving for australia in less than a fortnight, won’t see him for a good couple of years. weird shit, can’t hack that. i love my bruv and saying goodbye will be sad.
talking of australia, mother and her partner are spending christmas in melbourne with his family. home alone for two months? don’t mind if i do.
only three exams...
i don’t think i’ve ever needed a cigarette so badly in my life
successfully avoided spending hours reading irrelevant books, i even managed to read what i was meant to have read many, many months ago. however i then wandered off and ended up at beatnik emporium having the time of my life in the fancy dress section.
becky’s ‘through the decades’ party is next weekend. i arrived home and realised that i’ve somehow lost my flapper dress,...
today i am playing in a library
this is a reckless idea, how am i supposed to get any revision done when i’m surrounded by hundreds of pretty books?!
mental note: who the hell is Pericles?
i sound like such an angry child ahaha
questioning everything. after all i’ve said i really wish i was going to uni this autumn, i need to get away from this damned place and these damned people. at this rate we’re all going to hell and it’ll never change and i don’t have the motivation to change my ways this far into the game. i quit playing now thanks, it was funny at first and my life was oh so bloody...
boy you left me speechless, inappropriate behaviour last night. unexpected arrivals and awkward greetings, oh hello there darling how i’ve missed you! am i a bitch? i’m becoming just as bad as the girls whom i despise - ohh what’s happened to me in the last few months?!
‘where d’you think you’ll go jess? heaven or hell?’
just concluded the millionth god related discussion with michelle and my head’s spinning as always. it’s shades of grey for me, it’s always been shades of grey. and i cannot fathom how to be full of faith, i see her and i can see the subtle ways in which she’s changed since finding god and i...
May 2010
56 posts
completely thrown
so i’ve posted the photo below before, but right now i’m in an incredibly reminiscent mood and i just had to post it again. in 2008 i went to New York with my best friends and my schools drama department, easily one of the best weeks of my life. and now everythings different, the people who were so important to me back then hardly feature in my life anymore and isn’t that sad? i...
i’m thinking of a million things that happened a year ago and i genuinely don’t know what i’ve done for the last year ahaha
this was never a cry for help darling
you and me, we’re worlds apart. you’re laughing laughing laughing at this joke and i just don’t see it. you and me, i don’t see it. looking back i never saw it, and in retrospect everything is much clearer. obscured by emotion, i think i’m breathing fine now. you can let go now, let me go. it’s one step forward then one...
this is the last day of college
and an end of an era. roll with us or get rolled over, we’ve all matured enough to go our seperate ways. look at us now and be proud. i have deep respect and even deeper love for ‘em all. peace out indie hill, it’s been good.
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so from one side of it all there’s ‘please come see me’ and ‘fuck you’ on an irregular basis, which messes with my head every time although you hadn’t crossed my mind in weeks. and from the other it’s the advice that ‘you deserve better’ and by that he means him but now i’m thrown.
much of history was determined by the flight of birds, they look so free-spirited and yet follow many of the same patterns. a realisation of how different our world could have been had the augurs possessed other interpretations. the course of future is based on chance, whether pre-determined or not, that is all.